Commonplace.

Is it just me..
Or is almost everyone "Bi"?
Yeah..
That's what I thought.
It seems to me the whole thing
Has turned into some kind of trend.
Being attracted to another girl,
Kissing another girl,
Maybe getting horny cuz of one,
Does not necessarily make you bi or les.
It's true.
[I say girl because I am one
But it applies to both sexes, obviously.]
Experimenting is one thing...
But I just can't understand having a long-term relationship
With someone of the same sex.
Maybe it's just me.
I mean,
Leaving religion out of the whole thing,
It just doesn't work.
Guy on guy.
Girl on girl.
People weren't MADE to mesh like that..
Or else I would be able to impregnate another girl..
Guys would be able to become pregnant.
And it just doesn't work that way..

I won't say I haven't ever been attracted to chicks.
I won't say that I haven't ever wondered.
That I haven't wanted to try things.
Experiment.
But long-term...
Yeah, I want a man.

Because that's just how it's supposed to be.
And,
In the end,
A real man is the only thing that will work for me.
Someone who isn't JUST like me.
But pretty darn close.
Someone who believes chivalry isn't dead,
But isn't sexist.
Doesn't look down on me.
Loves all the funky things about me.
Maybe he isn't artistic..
But he appreciates that I am?
I mean seriously..
How hard is that?
To really appreciate someone...
Why does it seem as though a lot of people
Aren't getting their love returned?
Not the right way, anyhow.
I don't get it.

Eh.. I know I'm just a little.. Hmm..
Well.. I'm prolly just in a romantic sort of mood right now.
But that's honestly what I want.
That's what I'm waiting for.
I'm not against having a boyfriend.
I just don't want to waste my time with ass holes.
I don't want to go into a relationship
That I KNOW will be short-term.
What's the point?
Having fun is great..
But why not have fun with someone that
Actually means something to you?

Yeah.
And I'd like to say something else:
Sex. Does. Not. Equal. Love.
Nope.
Sorry to shatter bubbles..
But seriously.
There are reasons they used to wait til marriage.
And one of those reasons is prolly that
Marriage is for LIFE..
I mean, it's supposed to be..
And when people have sex too early,
Their bodies will put off hormones that they will mistake for love.
It's not love, kids, it's lust.
Sex shouldn't be a given.
Sex should be important and significant.
It should also be fun.
And it's not for a million people, either.
Seriously,
There's a reason they call those girls sluts.
But you know what?
Those guys are whoring right along with the girls.
Sex takes two.
So Ya'll are sluts too.

Gah.
I guess I'm just ranting now..
I have just seen so many of my friends'
Lives go down the drain.
And I really wish that I could convince myself
That doing things the right way.
Having a brain.
Being beautiful, not slutty.
Being artistic.
Nerdy.
Having morals.
Not having a cookie cutter personality..
I wish I knew for sure that
There were guys that appreciated that..
That individuality really IS oh kay.
Cuz if it's not..
Well..
I'm screwed.
I can't be like anyone but me.
Hell, I'm still figuring out who ME is!
Yeah yeah yeah..
I'm being dramatic.
Whatever.
It's what I do.
I'm a drama nerd. :]
But seriously, at least I'm not causing drama.
Not making stupid problems for people.
At least I'm not stealing anyone's boyfriend..
Or ex-boyfriend.
I'm just good friends with a couple.
Ha!
Silly girls that are jealous of me..
Whatever.
Don't be jealous of something you know nothing about.
It's the hardest thing EVER
To be in love with your best [guy] friend.
Take it from me,
I've encountered it before.
And you know what?
I'm prolly about to go through it again..
And the fact that that first one didn't stick around long..
Well..
Let's just say THAT'S not a very comforting thought right now.
No.

So anyways..
Too many things are commonplace.
Homosexuality.
Sex.
Assholes.
Heart-shaped cookies.

Oh crud.
Valentine's Day is Saturday.
Day after tomorrow.
I totally forgot for.. A whole... Day.
Ha!
Ahh.. I'm totally lying to myself when I say I don't care.
Whatever!
Well.. At least I think I know what brought on this dumb-ass rant.
Geez.
Am I really THAT sad?
Do I really care that much?
I thought..
I thought for sure this year things would be different..
I had a boyfriend.
I loved him.
Turns out I wasn't in love.
But what the heck?
I totally thought..
I dunno what I thought..
Maybe that all that stuff I tell my friends..
About how amazing they are
And how they deserve better,
The Best,
Well..
I guess I thought that applied to me too.
Ah.
Oh well.
I'm only 18.
What the hell do I know?