Castles In The Sky

-Ian Van Dahl


Alrighty..
I've started playing my guitar again,
got a tuner yesterday,
and went to town on my acoustic,
snapped a string,
and moved on to my electric.
Woot!
It felt really good.
I even worked on some bar chords.
I need to do some more memorization.


This has to be short because I'm watching Smallville with mum..
But I wanted to say that
I'm doing quite well.
I'm not going to pretend things have suddenly gotten easy..
I just think that God has given me some peace.
I've released things.
I put things in his hands,
and if they happen they happen,
and if they don't, they don't.
In the meantime I'm working on my artistry,
my homework,
and some budding friendships.
I love Josh and Shannon to pieces.
They make me laugh so much!
And Josh is... Stabilizing for meh, I think.
It's pretty fantastic.
I've decided that it's enough for now,
just to work on meh.
I'm still talking to boy kinda..
But I don't expect things.
I keep praying for his way to find him.
And I pray that mine finds me.
I've decided to sorta.. Chill a lil.
Take things more slowly.
Not lazily, just.. Not so intensely.
I've been fierce about so many things..
I've worn myself out.
I'm tired of loving and despising 
and everything else.
So we'll see how my life goes.


I'm looking into beauty school,
even though I was accepted at SOU.
I have a lot of interests.
I'm just not sure in which direction to take my training.
Also, I'm planning to upload a new video
tomorrow on my youtube.
Youtube.com/MokonaLya
if you're interested.
My lappy is back up and running,
so it's about time I got back to my vlogging.
Haha.


-You're poison.-